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It’s finally time for me to get stem cells!
Miles to go before I sleep
” these Woods are lovely, dark and deep, but I have promises to keep. and miles to go before I sleep .and miles to go before I sleep.”- Robert Frost. I used to think about that all the time. Wondering when, and how I would leave this earth. I always figured I’d be lucky for anything after 50. I had days to go before I slept. I had moment to moment before I slept in less than two weeks and now I leave for Mexico. I have a whole new journey in life to look forward to. I never thought with my multiple sclerosis there could ever be any help or care. For all the terrible medications I took, that didn’t do anything at all finally I see hope. I am all kinds of emotions right now. It’s very scary and very exciting. I will lose all of my hair and I absolutely don’t care! Finally there are miles to go before I sleep. And miles to go before I sleep….
16 days
16 days until I go to Mexico
16 days
16 days until it doesn’t matter if I’m off aubagio
16 days
I miss walking with a walker. I miss not crawling on the floor
16 days
Then I will not need my medicine anymore
16 days
My multiple sclerosis is kicking my ass
16 days
Till I hope and pray it will be a thing of the past
16 days…
Is blood thicker than water?
Is blood thicker than water?
- I have many blood relatives that mean more to me than anything. I have water relatives that mean more to me than anything. Sometimes I wonder which is which and which is more important. Honestly, I do not know. I am part of the O’Brien family. I am part of the Walker family. I am part of the Bacorn family. I belong to the Herz Family . I belonged to the Stephens Family. I feel like at times, I like one family more than the other. But I know in my heart I love them all equally. Sometimes I do wonder what it would be like to not be from a broken home. But then I think if I wasn’t from a broken home I wouldn’t have all these wonderful families in my life. It is a difficult subject for me as you never want to piss off anyone in your family. But when you come from five different families this question of blood versus water is impossible to answer. You can’t help but Wonder. But then you feel terrible for even wondering. After I get stem cells I plan on writing a memoir. Mostly about my life with multiple sclerosis.I have had symptoms of multiple sclerosis as early as the shots I was given as a baby. I realized when you write a memoir you must give a little bit of a backstory. However, I worry so much that I will piss off someone from one of my family. But I will be honest to the extent of what I remember and try not to piss anyone off. For me, I guess the only answer is blood and water does not make a difference. It is who you are that makes a difference. It is the lives you touched and the lives that have touched you. I cannot pick a side. I hear so often that blood is thicker than water, and I honestly believe it’s kind of bullshit. I guess I will let you decide for yourself when you read my memoir. But I have a feeling you’ll come to the same conclusion as I have.
Addicted to more
My ex boyfriend Chris
The last time I brought up my ex boyfriend James Christopher.Rieth I was very surprised as to how many visitors my blog had. I have many pictures of us together and on vacation but I’m not going to post them. This is mostly an experiment to see if I am correct. He and his family has long since blocked me from Facebook. However it is the Modern Age and I have my ways and I’ve seen his Facebook, wedding pictures, and I know he lives in Washington DC. Someone tried to contact me on Facebook the exact same day I wrote The Post. Unfortunately,friends are only allowed to Write answers or message me on Facebook so I have since changed it to public. I am curious if it had anything to do with each other. And I wonder if maybe he is trying to run for office or something. If he is you should know Christopher that I am not the kinda girl to kiss and tell. I’m just curious why that day of all day I had so many visitors. It is strange because I am a simple bloger and I do not have a lot of followers. If anyone was out there in the world could explain this to me please message me on WordPress or Facebook and explain who you are and what you wanted. By the way, I got all my money to go to Mexico so I don’t need you rieth family anyway. Humanity has taken care of me as I knew they would and I thank you Humanity. Anyways it has me perplexed please message me or WordPress message me who you are and what you were trying to contact me. No I do not want anything to do with you Christopher. No I do not wish to expose you for exposing you would be exposing myself and that would be silly. I am just perplexed. Important thing is that I raised the money and Humanity did it and humanity is awesome. Never doubt how much love is it in the hearts of others cuz I never will again. Thank you thank you thank you and bless you peace and love Laurelin
Today is a great day
I’m one more day closer to getting stem cells. Today is a great day, because I have a beautiful daughter and loving husband who takes care of me. Today is a great day because it’s still Green in my backyard and the wind is blowing the giant maple tree beautifully. I fell down twice today, I didn’t hurt myself but I found myself laughing inside; and thought; today is a great day. I did my daily walk to the front door and back to my bedroom to keep my muscles moving and tripped once. I picked myself up and said today is a great day I walked as far as I did. I tried to fold the laundry but I was at an odd angle and I couldn’t do much. I told myself I’m grateful for the laundry I did fold, and today is a great day. My nerve pain is pretty bad today. but pain can only make us stronger, and lets us know that we are alive and I said to myself today is a great day. Now I am watching TV as I write this blog, just taking a break and being comfortable and thinking how much of a great day it is to be able to take a break. I am excited to go to sleep and wake up tomorrow knowing that tomorrow will be an even greater day. Because today was certainly a great day.
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