The animal. The animal. Trap trap trap till the cage is full. The cage is full. The day is new. And everyone’s waiting period waiting for you.
My progress with stem cells and now my turn towards the pharmaceutical companies. And putting an end to the corrupt ,evil ,no good, greedy, money-hungry people, behind the deaths of my friends and community.
Multiple sclerosis stem cell blog in 3 months. It has been very exciting, and very hard, and very downtrodden. But time takes time. Of life, I am on that roller coaster. Which generally people are on for about 70 years. I am on a roller coaster which only last a year or two, if I’m lucky that short of a time but oh -what a ride it is. The last few days I have been on a great high on the roller coaster. My right leg which I have not been able to move in six years I can now move and bend it at the knee so it does not just drag along as I walk with my Walker. I kept yesterday just picking it up cuz I couldn’t believe my eyes said it was working and sometimes I move it manually out of habit. But today it is still moving but I cannot walk with my Walker like I could yesterday. And it just reminds me that I’m takes time and I just have to wait. It is working. I have had many ups and downs on this roller coaster. Not only with my nerves and my muscles but all the organs and parts of my body including my brain. They have all been on their own coaster going up and down up and down up and down. Today just happens to just be at the very bottom of the big hill on the roller coaster when yesterday I was up high at the top. But time takes time. I am used to it. I have been paralyzed in this house for 6 years. I have had to learn to be patient. I know that time takes time. And then the larger scheme of things the rollercoaster of life is much longer than my rollercoaster of stem cells will be. I have not driven a car in 7 years I’m afraid I won’t know how to drive even though I have a driver’s license. I have so much to look forward to now. I thought I was stuck in this house for eternity. But I always knew my thirties would kind of suck and my forties would be awesome. And it does seem to be working out that way. So for the past few months I have only been writing poems and not updating you on my stem cells because the roller coaster is sometimes just too much to bear. And it is hard to explain to someone unless they have gone through the same experience. Stem cells do work. The only reason they are not legal in the United States of America is because of the pharmaceutical companies. We all think that our vote matters that we make a difference that the people in the government really have a say all the money comes from the pharmaceutical companies. They you really run this country. It is a simple fact our country gives out more medication then probably all of Europe combined. We are a nation that is addicted to opioids simply because they have been given out legally to so many people that they got to the streets then when people couldn’t get them they turn to heroin and they like in my community all of that junk heroin is killing people. So I took a chance and I fought back against the pharmaceutical companies and I went to Mexico. Where I did get real help. And I will walk again. And it will not be because of genetech or fighter thank you very much. I have seen more success from stem cells than any of the multiple sclerosis medications I have been on in 20 years. I won’t even bring up the fact that I was elaborate for almost all of those medications. Meaning that I was always a test subject before most of them were FDA approved and they wanted to see its effects on people before approving it. I always took this risk so that maybe I could help other people with multiple sclerosis. And some of them made me very sick. One made me suicidal. Some did nothing at all. But I think my greatest help to the multiple sclerosis Community is showing you that stem cells work. We need to rise above our government and stop with all the medical treatment via pills; stem cells do work. The only reason they are not legal in the United States of America is because of the pharmaceutical companies. We all think that are vote matters that we make a difference that the people in the government really have a say all the money comes from the pharmaceutical companies. They really run this country. It is a simple fact our country gives out more medication then probably all of Europe combined. We are run nation that is addicted to opiates simply because they have been given out legally to so many people ,that they got to the streets; then when people couldn’t get them they turned to heroin, and now like in my community ,all of that junk heroin is killing people. So I took a chance and I fought back against the pharmaceutical companies ,and I went to Mexico. Where I did get real help. & I will walk again. And it will not be because of genatac or Pfizer, thank you very much. I have seen more success from stem cells than any of the multiple sclerosis medications I have been on in 20 years. I won’t even bring up the fact that I was a lab rat for almost all of those medications. Meaning that I was always a test subject before most of them were FDA approved, and they wanted to see its affects on people before approving it. Always took this risk so that maybe I could help other people with multiple sclerosis. And some of them made me very sick. One made me suicidal. Some did nothing at all. But I think my greatest help to the multiple sclerosis community, is showing you that stem cells work. We need to rise above our government and stop with all the medical treatment via pills. When I was 20 years old I was put on a patch called fentanyl patch, and it came in like a gel like substance. It was much too powerful for me but I did try it again two years later ,as my nerve pain in my face got so bad that even percocets that one year did not help. I did not tell anyone I had them, because I knew that people in my community loved them and used them to get high. one of those people was my ex-boyfriend and one of my best friend’s named Joe unfortunately this later became the rift in our relationship. As I got older, I got sober and accepted that I had multiple sclerosis, and needed to stay away from addicts such as my dear ex-boyfriend Joe. Later FDA did change fentanyl patches to not be in this gel form ;but they still are very addictive and in high demand on the street. Now the problem in my community is opioids. Doctor’s hand out Vicodin and oxycodone like it is candy. And then it gets on the street ,and they use it inappropriately ;or shoot it up they get addicted, and turn to heroin. Because my town is a hub from New York City, that you must pass through to take your drugs to any place else in the country; it all flows through my community. And drug dealers take this heroin and they add things like strychnine, and led, And things you would not even believe; the chemicals they put in it. And then people start dying. People like my dear ex boyfriend, and friend ,Joe. The same man who once saved my life, is now in the grave. And I have four other friends who have lost their life to heroin. And it wasn’t even actually heroin, it was a dirty hit. All because the pharmaceutical companies let their doctor’s hand out opioids like it is candy. I Rose above it; and my friends, family, and Community raised money; and I went to Mexico because I’m putting a stop to it. I will not see any more of my friends like Joe die . I am still not even over his death. I see him and talk to him all the time. this started out blood only about how stem cell treatment has progressed. But now that it is progressing well, and I know it’s working ,I feel like it is time for me to talk about How stem cells can make a difference getting us away from all these pharmaceutical companies. as a final note- that one boyfriend I lost was due to alcoholism. Another was murdered in order to purchase heroin or some chemical and then there was my dear Joe, who God only knows what he was on when he passed But my point is ;I blame none of these people for their death. When it all comes back around ,I blame the pharmaceutical companies. And they have all the money in this country. And if you think for one second they are not in control of the people you vote into office, you are a fool. Let us put an end to this madness. Unlike Hamlet ,there is no method to this madness. There is only Madness. It is time for us to join together and” just say no” to pharmaceutical companies.!
Clinic Ruiz in Mexico during my multiple sclerosis stem cell treatment.
WordPress has made me realize there are some wonderful bloggers out there. They express themselves so beautifully and full heartedly. And I follow many of you. But over the course of the last 4 years I’ve realized that I am truly a poet and I am truly a Sci-Fi short story writer. when I look back at my blogs my poems and short stories are wonderful and they get really good feedback. But my actual blogs where I just talk about my opinions really kind of suck. I am the first to admit this. I am not good at expressing myself through words without rhyme. Rhythm and rhyme all the time that’s what I say. And if I didn’t have multiple sclerosis I would probably be a battle rapper and a poet. I am writing a memoir and submitting some short stories to Syfy magazines however the only actual blogs I will write our about a multiple sclerosis and stem cells. I probably won’t have many blogs on them as I have to wait a year or two before I see any success. I love reading all of your blogs and I love how all of you can express yourself just by writing your words. But I have come to learn that I cannot. I need my rhythm and my rhyme all the time. It’s not crime. I am just better at rhyme
Peace and love Laurelin
Me getting stem cells
Three weeks before I lost my hair
Me looking hot hey why not?
I want to believe. And I do. Read my short stories.
It’s the little things in life that we take advantage of every day. A poetic Journey down the path and the little things we forget to be grateful for.
I have had a new immune system now for two months. I have seen a little bit of improvement. I still need to get 5 IVs and I’m figuring out how to get them. But so far I am exactly where I’m supposed to be……sick!
My immune system is now 2 months old. I am still too young to have my vaccines like my measles-mumps-rubella and chickenpox. I am however noticing a lot of increased strength. Although it is difficult to tell because I perpetually have a cold. Like most two months old I am always sick. I have to go back all the antibodies I have grown up to have in my system in the past 36 years. Right now I have runny eyes, runny nose, ears that pop, but no fever. They said all that matters is that you don’t get a fever. My bladder is working pretty good. My bowels still are not working properly but I’m still hoping it’s only been 2 months. I have to be patient. My hair has started to grow back. But I usually wear a wig or a hat. My doctor ordered a new medication that is supposed to relieve bowel problems for people that take opiates. It did not work. So unfortunately my bowel problems are multiple sclerosis. And not related to the opiates I take for pain. Otherwise I’m in good spirits as I just still wait for my immune system to grow. I am past due on getting my retax infusion. I really need it right now. My husband does not find a way to get it in New York by the end of the week I am going back to Mexico. So that’s my update I hope you all stay healthy and happy. Stem cells are working as they grow but I do need to get those five more infusions. I believe the company is going to pay for it as long as Pennsylvania will accept that as payment and give me the infusions. Everyone keep your fingers crossed for me that they will.
Peace and love