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Not my country

This is not my country. My country was founded on immigrants and people coming to this land to better themselves and their families. This is not my country. I just read a story about two parents from Iran who are being detained at LAX because of their ethnicities. They were on their way to visit their daughter. Her father is very ill and requires medication. She has no idea how he is or how he and his wife are being treated. Anywhere to  over a hundred refugees are now detained at  airports across the America. People are protesting everywhere. Those protesters Are My People. Those refugees Are My People. All Races and all walks of life are my people. But as long as we have a dictator in control of our country this is not my country. He must be impeached. He must be stopped. He does not represent all of us and to the rest of the world he does. The world hates us right now. If we didn’t have enough countries hating us before, now the enter  world hates us. I do not know about you, but I do not like being hated. ESpecially for things I have no control over. I did not vote for him I did my part. But I don’t care what party you belong to, what is going on in this country is Wrong. And you know it. Do not just stick by the Republican attitude; I have to stick with my party. This is not about party lines ,this is about Humanity. Who are we to keep people from coming to our great land? You Are My People. You have the choice. You are The Voice. Take back our country. I don’t know what this place has become ;but this is not my country.

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Chemotherapy fog

May cognition is really bad it’s gotten much worse since I had chemotherapy. I keep asking my husband to buy me a universal remote and then I keep losing it or replacing it. I’d like to think that there’s a ghost are really nice spirit who is playing a trick on me but I know it’s just my brain. All of my multiple sclerosis mental symptoms have gotten worse since I came home. But no worries this is to be expected. And when the chemo fog all leaves, I should have better cognition. However in the meantime, my husband keeps hearing where did I put this ,where is this, where is this ,who is this ,who is that? it must be awfully annoying to people. On the bright side my hair is starting to grow back in. I never lost those damn eyebrows LOL. God bless being a Carpathian because not losing all of your hair is very rare and that is the only place I didn’t lose it. So anyways that’s my update for the day. Have any of you seen my television remote? I think my cognition is much worse. I guess I will go ask my husband. By the way have you seen my remote?

Check out those eyebrows that neverleft! 

 

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I am sorry.

I deleted the last Blog because someone took it personally. That is never my intention, with any of my blogs. My blogs are always meant for all of humanity. I would never single out a certain person. Things happen in my life ,like they happen in other people’s lives, that make me think of things and then I write a blog about it. For example, it was a Blog about how everyone tells me what to do with my multiple sclerosis. I know I must be quarantine for a while due to my stem cells growing. I need to give my body time to grow a new immune system. Meanwhile, people seem to know what I need to do while I’m letting my immune system grow. No caffeine. No granulated white sugar. No uncooked vegetables. No restaurant food for three months. Certain drugs I should go back on ,or certain drugs I should try that may help me more. Get lots of sleep. I have severe insomnia and I like the night time. I cannot live without my two cups of coffee in the morning. I am addicted to sugar and I cannot help it. I am always hungry late at night and I eat the most then. I’m not supposed to smoke. I am working on that one especially. The point is ,in life I know people mean well. I still need to feel like I’m having a life. My life for six years has been the floor of my bedroom. I just can’t wait for stem cells to start working and to be able to move around my house. I love you all so much including my doctors. But I can’t always listen to all of you. My life would be absolutely miserable. I know I am supposed to catheterize. I’ve been supposed to for over 10 years. But I am more comfortable wearing pads and taking my risk. My bladder has been working better,  which gives me hope that perhaps the stem cells are beginning to work. But in the meantime ,I am sorry but my vices  probably will continue. Please forgive me. I know it is wrong ,but I has to feel like I’m living. So I cheat a little. 

Peace and love Laurelin 

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Time takes time

Yes this is a phrase that has stuck with me for a long time. Time does take time. And time does eventually heal all wounds.. But the worst is when you’re the one who caused the hurt. Roadblock that upset my mother. A woman who I respect and I love more than anyone in the world. I did not know she was a block follower. I foolishly only thought she like most but as my husband only said if it was posted on social media. So I don’t know what to do. I am still in what they call chemo fog. I am not really in control of my emotions. My multiple sclerosis is like a roller-coaster and I never know if I’m going to wake up to a good day or a bad day. Anyways I don’t know how to fix this and I can’t really think straight to even think how to fix it because I deleted the blog and I can’t read read it to even remember exactly what I wrote wrong. I know it sounds crazy but chemotherapy kind of makes you crazy. The good thing is I live in New York and have no hair and I’m cold. I have seen no 6s nor have I seen any downfall yet to having stem cells. So they say you have to wait for up to a year to see anything effective. Meantime I will just wait because time takes time. And just like I hope my mother can forgive me I hope that stuff sells will work. I just have to let time take time. I apologize for all the grammatical errors I don’t have the eyes to look back through and put commas in.

Peace and love Laurelin