Come down
Come down and calm down. Listen to the sound
Peace. Quiet. Silence. It is all around.
Just sit and listen. It comes quick, it comes fast
Quiet. Listen. Or you’ll miss it then it’s the past!
It is the now! The only time that matters.
Many a now I have had. Memories splatters.
Every memory is a now. Enjoy it while it lasts.
That job, that lover, now lie in the past.
Come down and calm down. You still have tomorrow
Another now to make delightful or bring sorrow.
In the end all you have is the now. Though it feels like a memory.
Memories are now. You just hold them as Treasury.
I was born 1980. That happens now
But it’s 2026! I don’t understand how?
You are blessed with perception to experience the now.
Past present future it’s an illusion. It for you that’s how!
To experience life. Love. Anger. Hate. Despair.
It’s all happening now! You just aren’t aware!
Now I leave you. To enjoy this now. Oops! It’s over. Don’t worry another one happens now!
Existence
Dumb phone
My smartphone is definitely making me dumber.
So is yours.
Yet, here we are on our phones.
Beautiful mind
I do have a beautiful mind. I do. I don’t use it enough. I know this. I should write a book. About my life. My life has been mega interesting. I was raised without running water electricity. Vegetarian. Then my mom married a taxidermist! Lol My life has been weird. And then I got multiple sclerosis. In high school! That sucked. So much for my cheerleading career lol so yeah I should write a book. I could inspire others. But that seems like it would take so long. And I don’t know if I have the energy in me to write a book. Instead, I spend my day trying to stay alive. So far I’m successful. That’s how I spend every day. I wake up and I say, just for today I will stay alive. Yes I could write a very interesting book. Probably could make some money. But I have to not be lazy. And I’m lazy. And I have multiple sclerosis. Life is tough. I can’t type. I am using a voice application right now. And I don’t want to write a book with a voice application. So everyday it’s just about survival. And that’s okay because so far today is a great day. I’m still alive.
Goodbye 20/25
Tea with Darwin
Stream of consciousness
Sometimes I just think. About weird s***. Is the planet alive? Maybe. And if it is, maybe oil is the blood of the planet. And we are just the flea on the dog given the chance to live on the planet. And what do we do with that ability? We suck her blood! We are literally fleas on a dog it’s the dog is the planet. We are the flea. The dogs blood is oil! I think of the most twisted analogies at bedtime.
Patience
I hate patience It’s the worst virtue. Every day I’m waiting. Waiting for death. I do not dream of stuff. I don’t look forward to death. But every day I’m just waiting for death. I have no patience bring it on already. This life sucked. I’m ready for the next. I hope my soul learned something from this life, because a life with multiple sclerosis is grim. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve enjoyed it. I made splendid memories. Truly I have. But I also can’t wait to have working legs again. It’s been a few decades. And for this I have no patience. So do I look forward to death? No of course not. I want to live as long as possible. But at the same time, I really hope my next life is better. Because truthfully this one was great, except for the working legs. Minus the multiple sclerosis. Kudos to whoever made this life. I enjoyed playing out the script. But I have no patience. With the words from Ghostbusters 2 I leave you with this, time is but a window. Death is but a doorway. I’ll be back!