Dying to be a live



I have not written for a long time because I have been in institutions or hospitals for the past 4 months. You see in the month of June I Died For the First Time. My husband witnessed it as the EMTs had to do CPR on me in front of him and I bled from my ear and my nose and it was terrible. This was after I had slept for 5 days and my husband and did not know what was wrong with me. I was then taken to the hospital and then airlifted to Albany Medical where I got more treatment. I unfortunately don’t remember the helicopter ride which really sucks because I have never been on a helicopter and I probjably would have enjoyed it. Once I was at Albany Med I did fall asleep for 5 days and was put on life support. All of the organs in my body failed. Including my heart again. I once again received CPR which I remember having done and let me tell you it hurts like crazy. I have wonderful family that visited me during this time I was unconscious. Unfortunately I don’t remember any of it but I did have crazy dreams. I had 4dreams that were so real I had to have my husband separate the dreams from reality for me often. I dreamed of my own death twice and could not stop thinking about President Lincoln for he dreamed of his own death before it actually happened. My esophagus was so black and burned that the doctor said he’d never seen anything like it and 27 years of practice. They were sure that I drink bleach or Drano for they did not understand what could have possibly caused this burning in my esophagus other than Drano or bleach. They would not believe me or my husband when we kept telling them that I would never do such a crazy thing. At one point they convinced my husband and my mother to sign a DNR for they truly believe that there was no hope for me and they should take me off life support and just let me go. Luckily for me these two Muslim GH Dr I had only been there for a year a day. One day I mean. I am. I get to watch my daughter grow up and I could not ask for anything more. I am a medical Marvel. I was not supposed to make it. I was supposed to die and I get to watch my beautiful girl grow up. I feel so blessed. Thank you to all who have stood by me. I had dreams that were so real I had to have my husband separate the dreams from reality for me often. I dreamed of my own just twice and could not stop thinking about President Lincoln Ford seed dreamed of his own death before it actually happened. My esophagus was so black and burned that the doctor said he’s never seen anything like it and 27 years of practice. They were sure that I drink bleach or Drano or they did not understand what could have possibly cause this burning in my esophagus other than Drano or bleed. They would not believe me or my husband when we kept telling them that I would never do such a crazy thing. At one point that convinced my husband and my mother to sign a DNR for the truly believe that there was no hope for me and they should take me off life support and just let me go. Luckily for me these two Muslim gah I doctors told them both to give me some more time I had only been there for a year for a day I mean. One day I mean. My brain is so discombobulated it is hard to even explain to you all I have been through in the last few months. But all I know is I am meant to be here. Because I did not die. I am back. I am breathing. The air is flowing in and out of my lunch. I was once on dialysis because they thought my kidneys would never work again and they are working just fine now. I am a medical Marvel. I get to watch my daughter grow up and I could not ask for anything more. I am a medical Marvel. I was not supposed to make it. I was supposed to die and I get to watch my beautiful girl throw up. I feel so blessed. Thank you to all who stood to buy me. Remember to have strength. And all that you do and you never give up. For it is our sure will power that can get through anything.

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