Walls

Robert Frost wrote quote “walls make good neighbors.” Like most of his poems this is ironic.Walls do not make good neighbors ,walls make isolated Neighbors. Have we learned nothing from the Berlin Wall? We don’t want to divide family and friends. We don’t want to divide cultures and people. Of course I am talking about the wall between Mexico and the United States. I am very much against it. What a bunch of wasted money. Why not instead hire More border patrol? This creates more  jobs and brings more money into our country ,instead of money going into a wall. The Mexican president said quote “Mexico does not believe in walls.” The Mexican government is corrupt but good for him. None of us should believe in walls. Especially a country that is found it under the idea of e pluribus unum. Yes we need better immigration laws and control. But I say again, have  more emigration leaders to Patrol who gets allowed into the country  ,again creating more jobs. Once you start dividing people,  you divide Humanity.I am very against anything that corrupt Humanity. As a person who has recently visited Mexico I must say it is a beautiful country. The people ,the culture and the respect we received was beyond compare. I don’t know if we as Americans would give the same respect to a visiting Mexican, and that is sad.. Viva La Mexico and Viva Estados unidos and Viva El Mundo. Yes long live the world. There are no real boundaries. It is something that man creates. Do you think a wolf or cares about boundaries? Do you think the oak tree or the river cares about boundaries? After we are long and gone nature still won’t care about boundaries and neither should we. We are a nation that needs to be more accepting ,or at least follow my ideas. We are a people as a human race, that needs to be more accepting. It’s time to break down fences, not build them up. I think that is what Robert Frost would want. And it is what I want too.

Peace and love Laurelin 

Chemotherapy fog

May cognition is really bad it’s gotten much worse since I had chemotherapy. I keep asking my husband to buy me a universal remote and then I keep losing it or replacing it. I’d like to think that there’s a ghost are really nice spirit who is playing a trick on me but I know it’s just my brain. All of my multiple sclerosis mental symptoms have gotten worse since I came home. But no worries this is to be expected. And when the chemo fog all leaves, I should have better cognition. However in the meantime, my husband keeps hearing where did I put this ,where is this, where is this ,who is this ,who is that? it must be awfully annoying to people. On the bright side my hair is starting to grow back in. I never lost those damn eyebrows LOL. God bless being a Carpathian because not losing all of your hair is very rare and that is the only place I didn’t lose it. So anyways that’s my update for the day. Have any of you seen my television remote? I think my cognition is much worse. I guess I will go ask my husband. By the way have you seen my remote?

Check out those eyebrows that neverleft! 

 

I am sorry.

I deleted the last Blog because someone took it personally. That is never my intention, with any of my blogs. My blogs are always meant for all of humanity. I would never single out a certain person. Things happen in my life ,like they happen in other people’s lives, that make me think of things and then I write a blog about it. For example, it was a Blog about how everyone tells me what to do with my multiple sclerosis. I know I must be quarantine for a while due to my stem cells growing. I need to give my body time to grow a new immune system. Meanwhile, people seem to know what I need to do while I’m letting my immune system grow. No caffeine. No granulated white sugar. No uncooked vegetables. No restaurant food for three months. Certain drugs I should go back on ,or certain drugs I should try that may help me more. Get lots of sleep. I have severe insomnia and I like the night time. I cannot live without my two cups of coffee in the morning. I am addicted to sugar and I cannot help it. I am always hungry late at night and I eat the most then. I’m not supposed to smoke. I am working on that one especially. The point is ,in life I know people mean well. I still need to feel like I’m having a life. My life for six years has been the floor of my bedroom. I just can’t wait for stem cells to start working and to be able to move around my house. I love you all so much including my doctors. But I can’t always listen to all of you. My life would be absolutely miserable. I know I am supposed to catheterize. I’ve been supposed to for over 10 years. But I am more comfortable wearing pads and taking my risk. My bladder has been working better,  which gives me hope that perhaps the stem cells are beginning to work. But in the meantime ,I am sorry but my vices  probably will continue. Please forgive me. I know it is wrong ,but I has to feel like I’m living. So I cheat a little. 

Peace and love Laurelin 

Time takes time

Yes this is a phrase that has stuck with me for a long time. Time does take time. And time does eventually heal all wounds.. But the worst is when you’re the one who caused the hurt. Roadblock that upset my mother. A woman who I respect and I love more than anyone in the world. I did not know she was a block follower. I foolishly only thought she like most but as my husband only said if it was posted on social media. So I don’t know what to do. I am still in what they call chemo fog. I am not really in control of my emotions. My multiple sclerosis is like a roller-coaster and I never know if I’m going to wake up to a good day or a bad day. Anyways I don’t know how to fix this and I can’t really think straight to even think how to fix it because I deleted the blog and I can’t read read it to even remember exactly what I wrote wrong. I know it sounds crazy but chemotherapy kind of makes you crazy. The good thing is I live in New York and have no hair and I’m cold. I have seen no 6s nor have I seen any downfall yet to having stem cells. So they say you have to wait for up to a year to see anything effective. Meantime I will just wait because time takes time. And just like I hope my mother can forgive me I hope that stuff sells will work. I just have to let time take time. I apologize for all the grammatical errors I don’t have the eyes to look back through and put commas in.

Peace and love Laurelin