I have always known that some day I would write a memoir. Since I was even 14 years old people have told me your life sounds like a book. I’ve been told this throughout my life until right now. And for a few years I have wanted to write one. I have decided to begin the Journey of writing one. I have written some of the beginning of my life, when I lived in Tennessee with no running water or electricity., and what I remember of my parents still being married. My Memoir but mostly of course,will be about my journey with multiple sclerosis. And my first symptoms of multiple sclerosis began in kindergarten. And I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis on my 18th birthday. So I’ve written the first four years of my life. Now I am writing the part of my life that is hard. From May 10th nineteen 98 until now. My last nine years have been wonderful as I’ve been married to a great man with a beautiful daughter. Although, life has been very painful ,as my multiple sclerosis has been very bad. But those are the easy years to write about. It is 1998 to the Year 2007 that is very difficult for me to not only recall but to write about. I began writing about it and I’ve gotten up until my first three years of college. I can’t seem to get any further because there are always tears in my eyes. As many of you know I suffer from addiction. I self-medicated my multiple sclerosis by being the biggest drug addict I could be. I have gone down paths that no one in the world could imagine other than in the book. I have seen things, and had things done to me, that people could only imagine in a book. It will make an amazing book. It will be an amazing journey. It would be something people would love and enjoy to read. But remembering those years are tough to write about. I have personally blocked out so many memories. Memories that even now I can’t tell you because they are so graphic they cannot be told until my book is written. I have been to Skid Row and Back Again. I have done and created more drugs than imaginable. I love watching Breaking Bad because he reminds me of myself. That is very narcissistic of me to say, but it is the truth! If you only knew the things I have done and seen. But it is so hard to write about. So many awful things have happened to me. I have done so many awful things to people. Thank God for this statue of limitations. Because I have broken so many felonies there is no way I could give you a number. It is painful to remember our past. And I learned in AA you should never turn the door on your past but don’t stare at it. Writing this Memoir is making me stare at it. For all those reading this that knew me in those years I apologize. Because I know in some way I probably hurt you. Probably lied to you. Probably took advantage of you. Or for those of you reading this that did the same to me, how dare you. I will at some point published that part of my mom work when are we can get past my tears. I will of course change many people’s names. However ,some people’s I will put their full names because they are criminals in prison. I hope all of you have learned lessons from your past. God knows that I have. I hope whenever I finish my Memoir you enjoyed reading it. And even more than that, I hope someone publishes it LOL until then live every day with peace and love and joy ,and remember to not stare at your past, but don’t close the door on it.
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A conversation with me and my girlfriend at the mall
Insanity!
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again without expecting different results. Should we not expect our government to work this way?

I look like a Muslim in this picture. Does the government want to kick me out now too? This is where the insanity is going. Insanity! Insanity!
Insanity!
The immigration band that is absolutely dividing our nation and going against the Constitution. Here is an interesting fact for everyone… absolutely no terrorist or person has been convicted of a crime against to the United States of America. Song we are fighting terrorism by Banning Islamic immigrants into our country 101 from their countries have ever hurt anyone of us. Does anyone else think this is batshit crazy? We must find a way to Impeach this man. The riots and the protest and the insanity will continue if this man is not put to a stop. Insanity is doing the same thing oveand over again and expecting different results. This is the progress that our president has shown Us in his very few weeks in office, is it not insane for us to not think he won’t continue? For years Americans have known that the only fake news on television comes from Fox network. Why has any American change their mind? Is this not insanity? Thinking that this time ,this network is going to report truthful news because mr. Trump says so. Insanity! Insanity I tell you! He needs to be impeached and the basic fact that he goes against the constitution in almost everything he decides to do. I love my country. I love the Constitution. I take a Pluribus Unum out of many one very seriously. When will this Insanity end? Rome did not fall in the day but it did fall. Babylon also fell. I am truly afraid for today, with this Insanity you are about to witness the downfall of the United States of America.
Maybe I should start tweeting one sentence answers to the problems I am faced with as president. Everyone knows that our presidents in the past used social media to speak to the public. #insanity
Peace and love Laurelin
Waiting for a miracle
My immune system is 2 months old. So I am always sick as a grl antibodies and the waiting is killing me.
Why blog?
A small poem explaining why I think we all want to make our Mark in history in a small way. And I’m so glad we all do.

Why blog?
Blog because you have something to say.
Blog because your imagination won’t go away.
Blog because you care.
What people eat. Or what people wear.
Blog because you care about people in the world everywhere.
Blog because it’s the only place you can get in a word.
Blog because you want to be heard.
Whatever your reason have no fear.
Your blog an is eternal memory that you were here
Catfish
Social media is filled with people trying to take advantage of you. It is a wonderful way to make all of humanity connected but there’s still some bad people in the world. We must be wary of this. He should speak of seven signs of how to protect yourself from a catfish.
Catfish
I’m sure you are aware of catfishs on social media. They are people who are trying to scam other people out of money. Usually to try and get money to them to another country. The other form of catfish is one who pretends to be in love with you. For your time. You affection. Your heart. And often your money. They often use a different picture and tell a different story about who they are. We have all seen the show Catfish on MTV. Yet ,there are still so many people who are catfished. Usually elderly people are the ones who fall victims to the ones who want lots of money sent to them. I have had a man in Nigeria who tried to catfish me for money. I have tried to be catfished at least five or six times. My husband says to block them and I usually do. But I will be honest with you… I mess with them for a while. One guy from Nigeria was dumb enough to have on his wale he was from Dallas Texas living in Italy. His English was of course, terrible. I asked him to say something in Italian and he wouldn’t ,he just change the subject. He also kept referring to me as deary. I know that they often have a hard time translating pronouns of affection and then another language. This is always the sign of a catfish. All of his friends were also from Nigeria Tanzania or other African countries. Finally ,he admitted he was from Nigeria and he was a refugee seeking refuge in America and could I please send him money. I told him to try starting a go fund me page on Facebook. If you really was a hard worker trying to seek asylum in America people would help. He kept asking me to send money. Lol so finally I had had enough and I told him I know you are a catfish. This will not translate on your translator but it means you’re someone taking advantage of someone else using social media. I then said to him, why don’t you sell your phone if you need money so bad? Why don’t you invest your time in finding a job instead of taking advantage of people on Facebook? I told him I had already reported him to Facebook. I always do report these people. Always check their while to see who they really are. I had another creeper supposedly from Ireland. His page only had a picture of a little boy riding some toy. He only had three friends. He didn’t refer to me as Deary but he kept referring to me as lovely. I took a guess and I said you are not from Ireland I believe you are from Africa has somewhere. What a surprise ! He and his account suddenly disappeared. However for these few not good people get hit me on Facebook there are 10 times the amount of international friends I have made on Facebook. People that have bewcome really good friends. You just have to know how to be smart. Plain and simple if it’s too good to be true it is not good. And don’t search for Love on social media. I know it works out for a small few. Generally you should go on a dating website. People there that truly searching for love will pay a fee to be on there just like you. there are occasional people on social medias who were just interested in one thing, and you know what that is. These people just black immediately. There are so many of them Facebook won’t even investigate if you report it. My purpose in writing this blog is to tell people to be smart. It’s hard enough that we have to teach our children to be weary of social media ,when there are adults who still need to learn the same lesson. Be careful out there. And remember that Humanity in general is good. Every now and then you do find a catfish.
Peace and love Laurelin






