AA meetings belongs in meetings not on social media

There are many groups now on Facebook and other social media. These groups are all meant to be just discussion and to help other people. We got Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. We go Overeaters Anonymous meetings. We got sex addict Anonymous meetings. I hate to tell you all that if you’re on Facebook you have no anonymity. For one,  it displays your last name. For two ,you don’t really know who you are talking to. There are  preditors on  those sites looking for easy targets. People go on those discussion panels purposely just to start fights. I have noticed half the time they are people that aren’t even sober at all. Yeah they keep talking about how they need to get past step one. You need to go to a meeting. Don’t tell me you can’t find a way. I got rides from so many different people when I first joined anonymous group.I Did not join anonymous groups  on social media. You can join discussion groups about it on social media but be wary half the people on there are not who they say they are. The best way to check is to Simply look at their profile. I always do and you can learn a lot just by a person’s profile. One man who kept arguing with me about sobriety and claiming to be more sober than I, always picks a fight with me. And I’m just going to say that he is always wrong. So I checked out his profile and he is indeed a very well-educated well-read extremely good job he retired from here…but here  is the kicker, he has over 4,000 friends and he’s supposedly a 62 year old man. Do you have over 5000 friends? I am very leery of people like this. I belong to a secret group that is just ladies who discuss and talk about their problems and try to help each other. This group is absolutely wonderful. It was invented by women on Facebook. I have heard people say in my other discussion group that people should go to a meeting online and that Facebook has them. Never do this!our  first tradition states that you will not speak for this group or advertise it in the media, radio, or television. No these Traditions were made before social media definition isn’t social media media? I think I might leave this discussion group because it is full of negativity and upsets me. And you will know I do not believe in letting negativity into my life. And you should not either. Facebook is awesome. I have friends all over the world because of my blog and Facebook. But we must be careful. If we are not careful how can we expect our children to be careful? I just think if you really need help, you need to seek out real life human beings for help. Because unless you know the person personally they are not real human beings. You don’t know their real age. You don’t know if they want something from you. You don’t even know if they have a drinking or eating or sex problem! Everyone just be careful and if something is terribly upsetting you as I got upset this morning you know the best thing to do? Get off Facebook for a little while. If you have to, leave the group. If you absolutely must block someone, block them. And certainly don’t trust a man who claims to be 62 with over 4,000 friends on Facebook. Can you say creepy?

Peace and love Laurelin 

The three questions

There are three questions in life that everyone has asked themselves throughout their life. If not once, many more times then that.

1. Is there a God? The answer of course is different for everyone. Yes I believe in a higher power. I choose to refer to this higher power as God. But I view  God and nature as the same thing. Some people are agnostic. Say neither deny or believe in a higher power. Some people are atheist. They do not believe there is a God at all. It is interesting that there has been a scientific study in which where they had people think about God and the people that believed in God ,activated a part of the frontal lobe that otherwise is never activated. The agnostics activated it a little bit but not as much as the Believers. Atheist ,when their brain was studied thinking about God, the frontal lobe did not activate at all. I find this very interesting. However, when it comes down to it all I care is if you’re a good person or a bad person. Isn’t that what matters?

2. The second question is how we got here and why we are here? This of course involves creationism. Were we created by a higher power? Where we created by Nature? Personally for me, I see no difference in God or nature, so I believe in evolution and that God created Evolution. however, if you believe it’s just a coincidence we are here and the Big Bang is nothing more than a coincidence then that is ok to. All that matters is that you are a good person or a bad person. Isn’t that all that matters? And as far as why we are here. No one knows. Perhaps we are here just out of a coincidence. Perhaps we are here to learn something and come back in another life to learn again. Perhaps we are here to better the world. Perhaps we are to be evil and , perhaps we are here to make Humanity better. Either way, isn’t all that matters whether you’re a good or a bad person?

3. Question 3. What happens to us after we die. Some of us believe we go to heaven. Some of us believe we are energy. and we will return our energy into something else that will grow from the soil from our ashes as we decay. Whatever you believe, isn’t all that matters that you’re either a good person or a bad person in this life?

My point being that it doesn’t matter. We will always be thinking of these three questions. That is what makes us human. Our curiosity. And it is also our curiosity that has made us so great. It is the evil in the world that we have to watch out for. That we have to protect each other from. All of the other $0.09 of these three questions don’t matter in life. So stop worrying about them so much. What matters in life is to pass it on. To help each other. To remember we are all sisters and brothers. Humanity does not have a color. Humanity does not have a religion. Be kind to each other and learn to live in peace and harmony. No matter what someone believes, remember they are part of your Human family. Stop worrying about these three questions. We will all get the answer soon enough; when we are ashes to ashes, dust to Stardust.

Peace and love Laurelin 

Dividing people from people never works

Beautiful Puebla  Mexico. 

The president is still trying to Build That Wall. Using our money and expecting it to come out of Mexico.. everyone knows this will not work. We are not only neighbors but we are friends. Texas and California used to be part of Mexico. Showing the influence we have on each other. The President also wants to make tequila and Corona more expensive by 20%. Also taking this a out of the Debt job Mexico owes us. Have you noticed seeing commercials for corn grown in America? You never used to see these commercials. Mexico gets 90% of its corn from America. Do you know how much that would mess with our economy to me if they no longer got corn fromus?. Why is he focusing so much on a debt from not only our neighbors but let’s face it,  dark-skinned people. Are you aware of how much money America as other countries? If we were forced to pay them all off we would be absolutely broke. What I found even other was the immigration ban. Not only unconstitutional but specifically singeling out Muslims. Again dark skinned people. Not that I’m trying to makze a point of this or anything. Do you know all the countries that banned from entrance? And not a single American has been killed from anyone from any of those countries. But we are fighting terrorism? Have you noticed Canada has made stricter entrances and work visas for Americans? If I was Canada I would just want us to stay where we are too. I’m not even so sure our president wants to be the president. I think he’s realizing it’s the hardest job in the world and probably doesn’t want to do it. He just wanted to be able to say I was the 45th president of the United States. I will say his wife whom I have never liked is doing a better job than her husband. She is out there with the people and with the children and doing what you’d expect from a first lady. So even though you can be surprised once in awhile. Back to the dark skinned people and the Muslims. I hate to compare him to this man because I don’t even like to say his name. But has this not already happened in the past? Instead of Muslims someone tried to keep out the Jews? At least my daughter has blonde hair and blue eyes. I however might get sent back to the Ukraine. The United States of America is the only country in the world that does not recognize global warming. There’s an international committee on it and we don’t belong to it. There’s another dark skin people in our country. Hundreds of years ago we slaughtered them and did Terrible Things to them so we gave them a few pieces of land that are basically desert land. We said this is your land. We will not interfere with it. Now the pipeline that’s an environmental hazard and is against the Native Americans wishes is going through their land. What is wrong with my federal government? Even most of them don’t support the president ,so what are they doing something about it? We need to do more than not come into work or for a vote we need to do more than be on the same party and disagree with him and that’s about it. We need to do more than federal employees and quit our jobs because we don’t agree with him. We need to be out there like Bernie Sanders! I am constantly watching the Unicorn riots live and I think that those protesters are doing an amazing thing. One more thing. The President says that Healthcare is a really hard thing to do. And he didn’t know how difficult it would be to clean up the mess we are in. Why don’t we work more on improving Obamacare? Why do we have to change everything the last president did?. I just don’t understand. And all I can do is write about it because I’m still quarantine in in the wheelchair. All I can do is speak out here and help someone is listening. And I hope that maybe just maybe I’ve changed your mind if you’re on the president’s side. America always over 1.2 trillion dollars to China and Japan. America 348 million dollars to Belgium and other European nations. Why are we picking on our neighbor?

Peace and love Laurelin 

Friendship

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Friendship is a two-way street. But sometimes it is time to let go

This is the new cover page on my friend’s Facebook wall. Except for the words have been cropped it’s simply a picture of a woman being overcome by a demeon. It used to always be a nice picture. Her profile picture used to be a nice picture of her face. Now it is the Grim Reaper holding a sickle. She has changed and dramatic ways. It’s okay for people to change but don’t let them change you.

The pain in writing a memoir

I have always known that some day I would write a memoir. Since I was even 14 years old people have told me your life sounds like a book.  I’ve been told this throughout my life until right now. And for a few years I have wanted to write one. I have decided to begin the Journey of writing one. I have written some of the beginning of my life, when I lived in Tennessee with no running water or electricity., and what I remember of my parents still being married. My Memoir but mostly of course,will  be about my journey with multiple sclerosis. And my first symptoms of multiple sclerosis began in kindergarten. And I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis on my 18th birthday. So I’ve written the first four years of my life. Now I am writing the part of my life that is hard. From May 10th nineteen 98 until now. My last nine years have been wonderful as I’ve been married to a great man with a beautiful daughter. Although, life has been very painful ,as my multiple sclerosis has been very bad. But those are the easy years to write about. It is 1998 to the Year 2007 that is very difficult for me to not only recall but to write about. I began writing about it and I’ve gotten up until my first three years of college. I can’t seem to get any further because there are always tears in my eyes. As many of you know I suffer from addiction. I self-medicated my multiple sclerosis by being the biggest drug addict I could be. I have gone down paths that no one in the world could imagine other than in the book. I have seen things, and had things done  to me, that people could only imagine in a book. It will make an amazing book. It will be an amazing journey. It would be something people would love and enjoy to read. But remembering those years are tough to write about. I have personally blocked out so many memories. Memories that even now I can’t tell you because they are so graphic they cannot be told until my book is written. I have been to Skid Row and Back Again. I have done and created more drugs than imaginable. I love watching Breaking Bad because he reminds me of myself. That is very narcissistic of me to say, but it is the truth! If you only knew the things I have done and seen. But it is so hard to write about. So many awful things have happened to me. I have done so many awful things to people. Thank God for this statue of limitations. Because I have broken so many felonies there is no way I could give you a number. It is painful to remember our past. And I learned in AA  you should never turn the door on your past but don’t stare at it. Writing this Memoir is making me stare at it. For all those reading this that knew me in those years I apologize. Because I know in some way I probably hurt you. Probably lied to you. Probably took advantage of you. Or for those of you reading this that did the same to me, how dare you. I will at some point published that part of my mom work when are we can get past my tears. I will of course change many people’s names. However ,some people’s I will put their full names because they are criminals in prison. I hope all of you have learned lessons from your past. God knows that I have. I hope whenever I finish my Memoir you enjoyed reading it. And even more than that, I hope someone publishes it LOL until then live every day with peace and love and joy ,and remember to not stare at your past, but don’t close the door on it.


Peace and love Laurelin