Words can hurt. Words have power. I am always telling my daughter to be very careful with the words she uses because they have power. I try to never swear other than on my blog. I try to be very delicate with my wording. I often lose control and blow off steam when I should not. But I am always the first to admit wrongdoing. This goes for other people too. People do not know how much their words hurt me. I stick 2 them and everything they say. There is one thing my father has always said to me that has always stuck with me. When you give a gift you should not expect anything in return. You should just feel good about giving the gift. I must admit I have been having some troubles with my multiple sclerosis. troubles happen it painful when I think I have let people down. It is even worse when they tell me I have basically let them down. I have no control over my body. People think that because I occasionally smoke a cigarette that it is the reason for my body not working. This is absolutely not true. The two have nothing to do with each other. And I used to smoke marijuana like crazy and I gave it up a long time ago. I try to stay as healthy as possible but stem cells are not overnight fix. I feel like I have let people down that I have taken out loans for me to get themselves or have invested money in my go fund me page. I have seen amazing results but I still do have bad days. When I do have these bad days I do not need to hear negativity. It only makes things worse. I must stay in a positive frame of mind. And I certainly don’t need to be reminded of how much people have tried to help me. If the shoe was on the other foot I would do the same thing. With the exception of the cruel words. Sometimes people don’t even realize that they are being cruel. I understand this. It is not only human nature but it is frustrating for other people as well. I know so many people. People that have thought I would see overnight Improvement. It does not work that way. It takes years. My brain needs to grow new neural Pathways in order for certain nerves in my body to work again. It is frustrating for not just me but the people who have tried to help me. But even when I try to explain this to people they don’t seem to understand. I feel lost in this fog of emotion. The pen is mightier than the sword. You might as well be stabbing me in the back with your words that cut me down. But I must remain positive. I must be steadfast and believing that stem cells are going to work throughout the years. I must not given to the daggers of other people’s words. So I tell all of you my friends to be careful what you say. I know I am human and I slip up to. Or try to walk in the other person shoes. It is a lot harder than people think. Peace and love and good health to all of you my friends.
laurelinobrien 