Leave a comment Posted on October 26, 2016 MANKIND, me, my generation

Addicted to more

Leave a comment Posted on October 26, 2016October 26, 2016 MANKIND

Addicted to More

If you name a letter, I can tell you a drug I have done that starts with that letter. A is for Alcohol. B is for barbiturates. C is for cocaine. D is for Dramamine. E is for ecstasy.F is for fentanol. G is for ghb.H is for heroin…. I could go through the whole alphabet but I believe I’ve proved my point. I am a recovering drug addict. It all started when I started self-medicating because I found out I had multiple sclerosis in high school. None of these letters or drugs help in any way. Did I escape from my problems? Did I forget I had multiple sclerosis? The answer is no. Now at age 36 I see the damage that could have happened to me and may have happened to me and I have no memory of it. People think that you start smoking a little marijuana and it’s a gateway drug. I don’t believe this is true but if it is, that is not the case with me. Through working a program, I have come to realize that most people begin addiction by self-medicating for something . They want to escape something. They want to know it meant who they are. They want to work hard and stay up all night to get an A in college. The end result is always the same. Institutions, jail or death. If you are lucky enough, as I have been to escape these then you should be very proud of yourself. If you are reading this and you have an addictive personality stay away from it all. It does not improve things it only makes things worse. I am lucky enough to have experienced institutions and jail but not death yet. However I Know it will not be due to chemicals. Our community has become one of the worst of overdosing communities in the country. Every year I know at least one or two old friends that have overdosed and died. I write this blog to implore all of you that chemicals are no cure for Anything. chemicals are not fun; in fact they may start fun but they only lead to institutions, jail or death. I would not wish my past experiences upon my worst enemy. However, I would not change a thing that I have learned a lot from my experiences. It sounds fun being a drug Runner until you’re pulled over and found with drugs in your car. It sounds fun until you owe a dealer hundreds of dollars and he holds a gun to your head. It’s all fun and games until you die. And that is what will happen to you, my friends. If institutions and jail don’t work you it will kill you. Every human being on this planet has value has worth. Deep inside we are not supposed to live as hedonist. We are supposed to live as humanitarians and help each other. I hope by exposing myself I have helped at least one person. Do not make the same mistakes that I have made. You may not get as lucky as I have been. Peace and love Laurelin O’Brien

Leave a comment Posted on October 25, 2016 holiday

Anything is possible on All Hallows Eve

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Leave a comment Posted on October 25, 2016October 25, 2016 holiday

Anything is possible when it’s close to Halloween

My cat woke me up this morning. She said to me in a human voice “wake up I want food”. I looked at her and said how are you speaking in English to me you are a cat. I must still be dreaming. My cat shook his head and said “we can all speak English we just choose not to”. So I got up and I gave her some food. She said ” thank you very much”. Still confused I went back to bed. Thinking this must have been a very strange dream. When I awoke an hour later my cat said to me “get out of bed lazy bones it’s time to play.” Am I still dreaming? Or do I simply have the smartest cat in the world? He then looked deep in my eyes and telepathically said” kill him”. Iresponded and amazed how can this be happening but again the cat looked me straight in the eyes and telepathically said” kill him”. I told my cat I am a pacifist I do not believe in killing other creatures what do you expect me to do? Fat Cat replied with his eyes “kill him”. Thinking I was losing my mind I thought of calling my psychiatrist. But who would believe such craziness? I was home all alone and had no one to tell. No one to show this miracle too. Although it’s slightly frightened me that my cat Could Be A Serial murderer or through the use of telekinesis. I locked all the doors look through the house and under all the beds and saw no one so asking again who am I supposed to kill!? All he did was stare back into my eyes and say with his eyes “kill him.” I thought maybe I just need a Xanax and a bath. I must be losing my mind. As I sat in the bathtub I heard a very small crash coming through my kitchen window. Put on a towel, and very quietly and cautiously walked toward the kitchen. My cat stood in the living room holding a knife in her mouth. With her eyes he looked at me and said” kill him”. I took the knife and carefully walked into the kitchen. I found a strange man halfway in my window and halfway out my window. I told him,” I have a knife and I am not afraid to use it please leave my house.” He continued to enter and I stabbed him I stabbed him over and over again in the stomach. The next thing I remember was waking up and my cat saying in English to me” I want food.”