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Fairy tales

” children don’t believe dragons are real. Children know dragons are real “- Chesterton

Pompeii was destroyed by Mount Vesuvius. We know this to be true as a fact. Egyptians had knowledge far beyond that of what men should have known  at the time. That we know is a fact. Atlantis is buried deep in the ocean by a volcano, or some Devastation by the Gods for they had knowledge. This we know from a book ,but we don’t know if it is a fact. Vampires suck the blood out of life. This we know from a book, but we don’t know if it is a fact. The picture pictured above is of a volcano in Mexico where I am staying. That is a fact. Carpathians believe vampires to be real. That is a fact. My mother hangs garlic in our kitchen to Ward them off and also because she thinks it’s pretty. That is a fact. I am almost purely of Carpathian Russian descent. that is a fact. I have always believed in vampires. I have never met one but ,I have always believed that they are real. Until I came to Mexico I did not meet a real one. I have met real ones in the past, but I wasn’t quite sure until now. I was wrong about one thing. They do not suck the blood out of you. They suck the life out of you. They are pure negativity. And all they wish is to spread their negativity upon you. I wish for all of humanity to find the positivity in their life and to ward off the negativity. I don’t know if it is a fact that garlic does this. But I do know that they are real. You have probably met them in the past and not even known it. Or maybe they just gave you an uneasy feeling. You should always trust your gut ,my mother taught me. And I know this to be true. Children may know dragons are real. But I know vampires are real. And they are really fucking scary. Best not to talk to them. Best not to tempt them. Best not to smile at them or make eye contact with them. Best To keep your distance. They do not hide in the dark as books tell us. They hide in the light. Trust your gut my friends. Dragons May once have existed. But vampires have never died and they never will.

Peace and love Laurelin

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Christmas alone without family

Blowes. It does it just simply blows. Yes I am here to get stem cells but I will not see any true results for about a year. Until then it is like being on a roller coaster. I have very good days like I did yesterday. And they have extremely bad days where I’m below Baseline like I did today. I miss my daughter I miss my cats I miss my home. I miss my state of New York even though it’s extremely cold there right now. You should be happy it’s 70 some 


Degrees here. Where I live it’s snowing and freezing and causes my multiple sclerosis to flare up. But then I’m not happy. It blows. How can you be happy on the holiday this meant for family and friends and presents and a Christmas tree when you have none of those. I do have my husband here as a caregiver. And I have to be grateful for that. And I have to be grateful that this is my last chance at perhaps having a better life. And I have to be grateful that I’m still alive. That I have a home to come home to. That I have a daughter and family to come home to. Well now I just feel like an asshole after writing all of that. But it’s still a very unnerving unsettling feeling. To be happy and yet miserable at the same time. I am usually a very upbeat person. I love Humanity I love everyone and I never show hatred. But I hate being away from my loved ones. But I love the chance to perhaps improve my life and their lives. It is a conundrum. It is a total oxymoron. I do not know how I am supposed to feel. All I know is on the other side of the country it’s not Christmas anymore. So I will pretend I’m there. I will pretend it’s a year from now and I can walk. I will pretend that all of this hell I have lived for the last 18 years will be worth something. I will pretend that I will be a teacher again. And I will go on as I always do with hope in my heart and love for Humanity. 4 is that not all we can do? We just have to Keep On Truckin. So that’s what I will do Keep On Truckin. And not to be cliche but the Grateful Dead suck. I just like the line Keep On Truckin. so do to you on this Christmas Day. May peace and love be with you and guide your heart. And allow yourself to remember that sometimes it just blows.

Peace and love Laurelin 

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Stem cells in Mexico for multiple sclerosis Christmas Eve

So you might say I’m getting a little bored. I’ve been quarantined now for about a week. And they have to be quarantined in this damn apartment for another week. The hematologist says everything is going great. But I basically feel exactly the same. The one good thing is I was able to eat with a spoon both today and yesterday. I have not been able to use utensils for a year. Then you say you don’t see signs of improvement for 9 to 10 months. According to everyone else I should have started losing my hair today. But I have not lost any hair yet. It might fall out when I get home or I might be one of the lucky 10% that keeps my hair and the stem cells start helping and growing quickly. I do think this is going to be a miracle for me. I do think this was the best option for me the only option for me. There was nothing left for me to try. Tomorrow is Christmas day and I am missing my daughter like crazy.

We are very close to the equator here in Puebla Mexico

  • So there is no heat or air conditioning as we don’t need it here. As you can see from the picture below it is quite cold in New York state and quite snowy. The cold bothers my multiple sclerosis but I want to see my child so badly I don’t care. They have a pyramid here that is bigger than the pyramids in Giza because there is a church on top of the pyramid they are not allowed to dig  under the pyramid to see just how tall is. There is also a volcano here that is dormant but it releases  out steam constantly. You still live in Hawaii so it is no big deal to me I have seen many volcanoes. I really just want to go home and see if this procedure will work. I have faith that it will. And the doctor seems to think that I’m doing extremely well. Tis the season to be with family and I’m all alone except for my husband who was out and about right now. I am trying not to be depressed as I know this is a miracle. I never thought I would miss New York so much.

 Peace and love Laurelin