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Hsct stem stem cell transplant one year post

A disease has stopped progressing. But my disease is still there. I live in New York and the winter brings on multiple sclerosis symptoms very badly. I am much stronger. And I have gained 30 pounds mostly in muscle. I can get in and out of bed on my own. I can get on and off the commode on my own. I still cannot walk without a walker but I do not use my wheelchair and anymore. I thought I would to be farther along after a year. I think both my husband and myself were hoping for a miracle. But the fact that it has stopped at the progression has at least alone saved my life. The doctor and Mexico said that I would not know my results until about 3 years post. I don’t know how much more I will get in healthy here but I hope I will be. I am still hoping for that miracle. I hope I get a little more out of this then I have but I cannot complain. For it has stopped at the progression of my disease. And it is still possible that new neural Pathways can grow from my brain to my nerves. A big problem is my sense of balance. Unfortunately that is all in the inner ear and I must just hope for new neural Pathways to grow. I must stay optimistic. Everyone says I look much healthier. It is difficult for me as I have body dysmorphia and I can no longer see my ribs. Which of course makes me feel fat when I know I am not. So I try to avoid the mirror and my husband is buying me new pants for Christmas as none of mine fit me. Stem cells have definitely been a Journey. And a journey I would do again as if I had not gotten them I may be bed ridden by now and I am not. So I have to keep my hopes up. I don’t have to keep dreaming of a bright future. But after one year I can’t help but feel a little disappointed. I know I should not. I should just be grateful. But I don’t think I will ever have a normal life that everyone else hats. Not hats hey it’s not hats my voice application is screwing up sorry about that guys. Anyways stem cells are still a great thing. I have been diagnosed with multiple sclerosis for 20 years and I wish they had been unavailable when I was younger. I probably could have stopped and then. But America is so blinded by the pharmaceutical companies that instead they made me a guinea pig for all types of the medications that did not work. I am a very grateful woman with multiple sclerosis today. I am not trying to sound like I am not grateful. I just hope and pray that my white blood cells keep dividing and grow new neural Pathways and I see a little more from my procedure. I still have very short hair. And it has grown in super curly from chemotherapy. Long beautiful hair. But it least at age 37 I don’t have any gray hairs yet and I am grateful for that. My bowels and my bladder still work on and off. Because I am still on opioid medication it is hard to truly see the success of my bowels. Bernie. & a journey I would do with God as this I had not gotten them I may be bedridden by now and I am NOT so I have to keep my hopes up I need to keep dreaming of a break future but after one year I can’t help but feel a little disappointed I know I should not I should just be grateful. I don’t think I will ever have the normal life that I have for you want to help that has not had had is not hat my voice application is growing up sorry about that guys anyways themselves are still a great thing I have been diagnosed with multiple sclerosis for 20 years and I think had available f***** probably precious Americas so blinded by the pharmaceutical companies that didn’t send me a guinea pig for all types of that kitchen work I am a very grateful that supposed to closest to say like I’m grateful I just hope pray that my white blood cells keep fighting and grow girl pathways and that he left my procedure I still have very short hair and it has probably from therapy over I miss my very long beautiful hair but at least at 8:37 I don’t have any gray hairs yet and I am grateful for that my bowels and my bladder still work on and off because I am still on opiate medication it is hard to truly see the success of my bowels but my bladder definitely works better overall I would go back to Mexico in a second it was completely worth it I just hope that post two years I will have more healthy stories to share with you keep your eyes on the prize my friends and never give up and never surrender we cannot let anything for it we all only got one I don’t is now 7 years old he is constantly asking her teacher to go to the nurses office I am worried it is because her mother is sick but you might just be trying to get out of work and that’s what I’d like to think it is she has such a strong little soul and I am so grateful to have her and an amazing husband I believe I would have made it better be in good health all of my friends I will keep you updated as the month progressed hopefully I will have every time the progression has stopped. And that is some miracle so great thank you to all we have supported me and it is for me to go to Mexico me so much to me power of community continue to keep you all updated. Peace and love Laurelin🌻 it’s always I apologize for grammatical errors as I still must use a voice application and cannot type or write yet. But hopefully I will someday.

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Keep your children close

This is by far the hardest blog I have ever written. My best friend of 15 years has been charged with some terrible things. To put it mildly he is a predator he is a pedophile. He had the nerve to ask my husband for help with how to download things without people knowing. Thank God my husband did not tell him. Now that he has been arrested I know that it was to look at child pronography. I am so Disturbed and heartbroken. I have a 7 year old daughter. She loved him very much and doesn’t understand why if he comes to the door she must not let him in. It is not a conversation I am willing to have with a 7 year old. God only knows what else he has done. He came to my benefit to help me get stem cells. Over a decade ago he helped me get through rehab. He was one of my only friends that stood by me because all the other ones wanted to get me hooked on drugs again. I feel like a fool that I did not see all the signs. For example he only dated women that had daughters. I feel so foolish and just so ashamed. I know everyone says that there’s no way I could have known. Evil comes in the kindest packages. It shows up without you having a clue. He had the cojones to stop at my house and tell me his house got raided. He has been all over the news so of course I found out the truth. Yet still he messaged me that he had lost his phone and to call him at this number. I of course did not because I know that the cops kept his phone because he had inappropriate videos on it. he had the nerve to ask my husband for help with how to download things without people knowing thank God my husband did not tell him now that he has been arrested I know that it was to look at c**************** I am so disturb and heartbroken I have a7 year old daughter she loved him very much and doesn’t understand why if he comes to the door not let him in it is not a conversation I am willing to have with a 7 year old God only knows what else he has done he came to my benefit to help me get stem cells. over a decade ago he helped me get through rehab he was one of my only friends that was good by me because all the other ones wanted to get me hooked on drugs again I feel like a fool that I did not see all the signs for example he only dated women that had daughters I feel so foolish and just so ashamed I know everyone says that there’s no way I could have known evil come in the kindest packages it shows up without you having a clue he had the Cajon 8 to stop at my house and tell me his house got raided he has been all over the news so of course I found out the truth. Yet still he messaged me that he had lost his phone and to call him at this number are you of course did not because I know that the cops kept his phone because he had inappropriate videos onTell me how many you get?? How  can such Horror exist in the world ?n we must look out for one another. Thank God I have wonderful Neighbors and we look out for each other. I am so Disturbed and horrified but there’s no way I could have known. This has made me aware that you simply cannot trust anyone especially with your children. By the grace of God he has never been alone with my child. But I can’t help but think of all of the children’s lives he might have destroyed. We have to stop bickering amongst each other and be there for each other. It does take a village to raise a child and we must keep the sick sons of a b****** out of our village. I am writing this blog mostly for myself. I do not want to post to social media as I am so embarrassed and just mortified. All of the fighting over Republicans and Democrats who gives a s***? There are real evilness in this world. That is what we need to focus on. We need to protect the innocence of our children. In fact maybe I will post this to social media. If I could be tricked then it could happen to anybody. Be part of the village to protect the innocent. If it could happen to me it could sadly happen to anyone. Peace and love to you all my fellow man. Let’s remember what is really important in this world. Not party lines. Not he said she said b*******. We must protect our children. They will one day rule the world. Let’s make sure they rule with dignity and respect. And make  to remember what is really important in this world. I’m not saying that the government doesn’t matter. but someday that same government will be run by the Youth of the country today. Let us make sure that they learn well and protect them with all of your might

Peace and love and more love Laurelin🌻