The most important day of stem cells in Mexico ended up being a depression

So I was the only one  in my group  with white blood cells too low to get the shot I needed .  So I have to do more blood work tomorrow and hopefully, I will have enough white blood cells in order to get the shot  ,and then recover and go home .  It was a pretty depressing day . I am still neutropenic  so I still can’t eat anything yummy .  Just the crap they gave me that’s like space food .  Not very happy about that  but what are you going to do all you can do is Keep On Truckin and hope for the best the next day .  So to  try to cheer myself up  I bought stuff 

 it did not work at all I just ended up spending pesos and having stuff


But I looked pretty cute don’t you think? I would show you the other thing I bought but my husband says I cannot show that picture to anyone online LOL. Anyways, I will hope for a better tomorrow and in the meantime ;my multiple sclerosis is still pretty rough my right leg isn’t really movable. But what are you going to do? You Just Gotta Keep On Truckin.

Peace and love Laurelin 

Most important day in stem cells in Mexico

Today I find out what my blood my white blood cell count is. If it is going up to 4,000 I am no longer in the neuropedic stage. Which means I can eat normal food. Because the food they gave me is like space food, it comes and these weird plastic containers and you heat them up with water ,and they taste like sawdust. It also means that I can go out in public as long as I wear a mask. I am so sick of sitting in this apartment ,you wouldn’t believe it. Thought I Loved Netflix, until it was all I had to watch. So last night when I went to bed I mentally thought about my white blood cells dividing and creating more white blood cells, in hopes that I will have enough to go off the neuroPedic diet.It also means that I can get one of the six shots that I need throughout the year to help my bone marrow. Which will help my stem cells to grow faster. Right now my multiple sclerosis is about at Baseline. So that means I can walk with a walker short distances. I am very nervous about today’s meeting and I am really hoping that my white blood cell count has gone up enough. This has been an amazing experience and it is my last chance at really helping my multiple sclerosis to get better. Stem cells should be legal in America for so many illnesses. We need to get away from the pharmaceutical companies. And now that we’re going to have mr. Trump in office it’s only going to get worse. He is not in any way supportive of science I am sure. He is more concerned with business and money. Hillary Clinton should be the president anyway she got more votes. And the only reason that mr. Trump even got elected it is because of Russia. He better be careful or he is going to start another cold war between the people of America and the people of Russia. If he thinks in any way that he is going to bring us together by his business tactics he is wrong. We are stronger and wiser than that. Let us all hope that this doesn’t happen but right now I cannot think about what is going on in the United States of America. For right now I have to worry about myself. So let’s all keep our fingers crossed that today will be a good day and my white blood cell count will be up. I really miss my daughter and my home and my cats. Even though I’m not allowed to touch the cats. I will need a caregiver for a few months, as my white blood cells grow and my multiple sclerosis may actually be worse for a few months. But that is to be expected. I just can’t wait to be in take a shit on my own. Such little things in life we take for granted. I hold my stem cells start to work quickly but it’s different for everyone. I may not see any definitive good results for a year. But some people have seen results as early as 3 weeks to 3 months. It is possible that because of chemo I may go into early menopause. Which I’m truly hoping and praying does not happen. All these things we take for granted. But I know  everything is out of my control and it is in the higher Powers control. Let’s just hope that he or she or it likes me. I’ll post my results in the blood maybe today or tomorrow. Wish me luck my Humanity friends!

Peace and love Laurelin

Today I get stem cells today is my birthday

It’s 6:52 a.m. in the morning in Mexico and I can’t sleep another wink. I am so excited to get stem cells at 11 o’clock a.m. this morning. This will be the beginning of my new life. Truly it is my birthday. I have gone through a lot of pain and anguish to get here. Including four doses of chemotherapy many shots that I don’t know what they are called and many pills that I don’t know what they are called either.

This is a picture of them harvesting my Stem  cells. After the fourth round of chemo my immune system is officially dead. And my multiple sclerosis does seem much better. I have much more strength but unfortunately you do need an immune system to survive so hopefully if the stem cells will grow quickly and I will have a new immune system without multiple sclerosis. I do have an AEDS  score of 6.5. I am lucky because after you are in 8 you are basically not eligible for stem cells and are probably going to die of side effects due to multiple sclerosis. Because I lift weights ,my arm strength gave me a  instead  6.5 instead of a 7. No matter what disability did disease you have you must work on keeping the strength that you have and are able to use. It does make a huge difference. After I receive my stem cells today I will be quarantined and not able to go out into the public and be on a special diet no raw foods or vegetables and other such things. I am so excited to be home to return home to the United States and wait for my multiple sclerosis to disappear. I look forward to so much. I look forward to playing with my daughter at the park. I look forward to cleaning my house. I look forward to being the wife and the mother that I know I have always been sposed to be.

I cannot wait for all of the IVS and this pic line to be taken out of my chest . They have been extremely painful but the pain I know it’s going to be more than worth it. Clinica Ruiz in Mexico has been outstanding to us. I recommend that anyone with multiple sclerosis that can afford it go and if you can afford it do as I did and hold benefits and anything you can do to raise money. The one thing I will say about this whole process is you need to have a positive attitude. There is one person  here who has a very low score. They are  on disability and they are  still able to work a little bit. In my opinion they should look at this as a blessing many of us cannot work at all. We need to be positive in life and always we need to try to not see the negative. They have  complained about the stairs not having railings. And I’m thinking to myself, but at least you can walk! Many of us here can not walk at all  and I’m sure it is slightly insulting. If not insulting just hurtful. Instead of feeling negative about having no railings think about the fact that you have legs  that work. people need to see the positive more than the negative. People have complained about the delicious Mexican Cuisine here right in front of Mexicans and the food here is outstanding. People have complained about the delicious Mexican cuisine here right in front of Mexican and the food here is outstanding. Some people speak on there cell phone while we’re getting chemotherapy so loudly that I know just about everything in their  life.. Anyways I will not go on my point is that we need to have a positive attitude when it comes to ourselves and our illnesses and our lives. Without positivity what good is living? Negativity only brings upon more negativity we need to be blessed feel blessed and happy with what we have. And be even more blessed when something like stem cells comes along to better Our Lives. I am so looking forward to this new journey in my life it is quite amazing that I was diagnosed on my eighteenth birthday and 18 years later when I was 36 I was that I was allowed to come to the clinics Ruiz nothing is in life is a coincidence. Nothing in life should be taken for granted. We should all feel blessed and we should all find joy in our lives.. we all are so lucky just to be alive and just to be part of this wonderful thing called Humanity. I wish you all the best of luck in all of your endeavors and I can’t wait to see you all when I get home. For those of you who live out of the country I wish you all the best of luck too and remember there is always help out there somewhere. Stay positive stay strong and as always peace and love Laurelin