vanity
It follows me everywhere
sometimes it controls me,
consumes me,destroys me.
Don’t want to get old
Don’t want to get fat.
I don’t know who I am anymore. Did I ever?
vanity
It is probably going to be the death of me.
Before m.s. Before smokes.
At least I stopped throwing up;
Bad for my teeth.bad for my heart.
vanity
It’s everywhere.
All around us.
Haunts us.
Becomes us
So you’re finally awake,at two PM
You have a hangover, and got no REM
You haven’t dreamed in sleep.in many a year.
Get sick every morning and reach for a beer.
What happened last night?And where is yourcar?
You have the keys,so it couldn’t have gone far.
You’re late to work. No money for a cab.
You spent it on something;yet,nothing you have.
Some say you have a problem.(won’t talk to them)
Problem is NOT you…It’s all of them
Miss work. Get fired. Say it’s all your jobs fault!
There’s a bang on the door! A dealer! SHHH! Just halt!
Must owe money…can’t remember..turn off the light!
If you hide in the darkness,it’ll be alright.
There must be,MUST BE,a better way….
Maybe you’ll try that NA or AA?
But sadly,today will be same as before,
Tomorrow we might find you dead on the floor.
But today you will sneak out the back door,
There’s a fix waiting for you;Addicted to more.
Every day I have same views in my room.
out the east window;a giant maple
out the south;a lilac tree.
Every year I watch seasons change
leaves sprout,grow&turn green.
only to wilt& die.& repeat process.
Every year.the same.the same.
last year I SAW the lilac struck by lightning.
now one branch lifeless.
others now deformed,don’t bloom.
East-repetition.safe.expected.
South-shock.sudden.death.
always east or south.
those are my views.
I am drawn to the east.
yet wonder of the south.
So I looked out the west front door
the view has changed.
life remains the same.
Sit back and listen,I gotta say somethin’
While my tongue is quick and blood is pumpin’.
Mind is racing,heart is bleeding,
From all the bullshit they have me reading.
Thought Bush just found the Taliban,
Ended up just being some Muslim man.
They killed his five kids, and young wife.
They gutted the grandma with a knife.
Grandma was trying to save the kids you see,
But no one runs from democracy!
Times like this;I want to pray.
But a bomb blew the church up yesterday!
Oil is the Republicans flavor.
Yet,they hide it behind the word terror.
The only terrorism that I see-
are the lies they tell you and me.
This war makes you angry, and a bit bitter.
While Bush reminds me of a man named Hitler.
He wanted to control the world too.
Today it’s money and oil, instead of blonde and eyes blue.
Poor,Muslim, with oil; you better run;
’cause USA is comin’ with a real big gun.
How do we stop this infinite madness?
Before everyone dies and all is sadness?
America is NOT just one face.
America represents the HUMAN race.
That means Jews, gays, Muslims too!
It’s time to stop reading bullshit and think for you!
Your opinion shouldn’t be what you hear.
Mass media will only create fear.
America; this war just is not fair.
It’s time to wake up from this nightmare.
Killing for power is not cool…
But we kill for fossil fuel.
Two seeds fell from an adult tree.
One grew firm and strong for thee,
The other weak, and tremblingly.
The first gave me a plethora of round lovely pears.
The other tree grew rotten ones; looking like zig-zag stairs.
I need both for food! Advanced my worry and cares.
“what should I do?” I said with a sigh.
Maybe I should chop it; and let it die.
Then I saw something out of one eye;
Vermin were getting into my field!
and eating all my produce the garden did yield.
I started to pray, on my knees I knelled
I then saw something over my shoulder.
The vermin were starting to keel over!
I grabbed my gun,ran outside,growing bolder.
In every mouth of the vermin was rotten fruit.
I laughed and cried, and said with a hoot;
“I’ll never remove that precious trees’ roots!”
I realized then;to look below the surface.
Everything; Everyone; serves a purpose.
I REgret,to not REgard my REgrets of the day
I REinforce my inner strength,wherever it lay
REentry into REality.
Before I cause a fatality.
REdirect negative space;
REflected by the human race.
Here lies problem of REentry.
It is quite elementary;
you can not REdirect human race
They are quite happy in their place.
I can only REmove negativity from me….
And it all starts with two letters; R&E.
Children don’t need words to speak.
They use laughter and smiles,sometimes a tear.
Grown-ups know how to speak.
they use war.religion.weapons and fear.
Children know that monsters are real.
They hide in closets,under their beds.
Adults aren’t sure if monsters are real,
They certainly exist though,in their heads.
A child will love you,for who you should be.
They see good in evil, are naturally free.
An adult will love you,when it suits them
They are blinded by what beauty they see.
Children are color blind.
They don’t see your skin.
Adults are prejudice and cruel,
Don’t see the you within.
At some point we lose this innocence.
We learn to speak.
We learn words like ‘fag’ ‘slut’ ‘cracker’………..
We should shut up.we don’t seek;
To be like a child.basic.True.kind
We should strive to not hate.
To leave bigotry behind.
When do we learn this ill fate?
some grown-up taught us. Innocence gone.
We can get it back! That’s what you don’t know.
It will spread like wild fire!
slowly burn and grow..
It starts with silence.
Words get in the way.
To relearn how to live;
Just watch children play.
dedicated to my daughter
laurelinobrien 