Another friend died. A raver friend. A good friend. Doesn’t matter. Gone now. I’d share the memories of her, but they’re mine! And some of them I don’t want to share. But all this death that surrounds me has got me to thinking, is that what life is? Just watching everyone die around you? Hoping they die before you die? Or maybe a wishing you had died instead of them. I believe in having good mitzvah. Doing the best you can with what you’re given. My girl died from a bad heart. Not the thousands of drugs she had done before, no! She gets sober. She finds love. And then she dies. That’s life?

Nevermore! I see now why Edgar Allan Poe used it so much. It’s a good f u c k i n g word. I went to Grassroots festival with this girl. Some guy at the festival gave me his last cigarette and just gave me the pack. On the way home I told my girlfriend to throw the pack out the window. She says, this feels pretty heavy. She dumps it upside down, and there’s an eight ball of cocaine!

This was quite a delight for three druggie friends in a car on the way home from a festival totally broke, strung out, with no more drugs. But then.. Along Comes This 8 Ball. It didn’t last long. Nevermore! But that memory will live on forever. And it is the memories that truly make us. The older I get, I realize that. It’s not the parties. It’s not the drugs. It’s the memories of the parties and the drugs. In the end, all we have is memories. So I hope you have good ones.

For me, I have some great ones with my dear girlfriend, Bobbie Jo

Together, we had many friends die from those same thousands of drugs we did together. But we prevailed! It was always such a beautiful thing. Unlike many of my friends, she did get sober. She did find a good guy, had a good life,and died from a bad heart. A heart that was so full of love, I guess it was just too big for her. Some are reading this might know might remember her. And know who I’m talking of. I hope you’re remembering her with great memory! Because that’s what she would want to be remembered as fun, loving, and going home to her Nacho! Her beloved Chihuahua that I am sure is waiting for her in heaven or wherever we go with Open paws. Until we meet again, girlfriend ️ ❤️ and I know we will!

Nevermore!

We scroll, we scroll, everyday we scroll.

No more hi ho, that’s time to go! Every day we scroll!

We scroll, we scroll, everyday we scroll.

At work at play, we scroll all day!

We scroll, we scroll, we scroll, we stroll,

Hi ho, hi ho, it’s off to work we go,

But bring your phone, so you’re not alone,

And scroll, and scroll, and scroll, and scroll.

How will you ever get by?

Try

Try

Try

🎵 when you’re too sick to work, and to healthy to die

How will you ever get by?

Deny

Deny

Deny

🎵 when you don’t want to work, and you don’t want to die,

How will you ever get by?

Lie

Lie

Lie

🎵 when you don’t want to give up, but you already have,

How will you ever get by?

S i g h.

Does the Antichrist know that he’s the Antichrist? I mean I’m not saying Donald Trump is the Antichrist I am just asking, if he was would he even know? Someone needs to look behind his ear.

We have already had an antichrist. Hitler was one. Believe it or not, will probably have another! And Jesus probably has already come back. He’s just chilling. Hiding out. Waiting.

I believe he is in Portugal right now.

Remember we are all americans. No matter what anyone says. Love each other. Do not let the darkness overcome the light.

That’s it. No poem. No lengthy blog. It’s up to all of us now.

I usually right A Blog about what I want for the upcoming year. As you see I want a free Ukraine. I am 44!

This will be a great year because I’m turning 45. Born in 1980 it’s pretty easy to remember my age. I like the years that are multiples of five, you never forget where you are or where you’re going.

Where do you think we are headed this year? Please say aliens please say aliens please say aliens 👽

I just don’t know anymore! Yes, I believe in aliens, do they believe in US? Worse, they probably don’t like us very much! We are the newbies of the universe. The babies. We still think time is real LOL

We will not become Interstellar until we realize that there is no time. Humans made it up. And we live by it. There is no time! Time to catch the bus. Time to go to bed, time to eat your lunch, humans are programmed to live based on time.

Perhaps this is the year we will finally realize time is an illusion! Yes we perceive a past present and future. It’s beautiful. It’s fun. Enjoy it. It’s really all happening at the same time. Right now you’re being bored, and you’re dying, and yes you’re immortal!

Let go of your individual consciousness. You will only remember this life. But you have had many lives before this month. And you’ll have many after this one.

We still think time and space are related. AKA space time. But in reality there is no time there is only space! And until we figure this out we’re never going to be Interstellar.

Why do you think I don’t fear death? I’ve already died! I’ve already been born I’ve already lived, it’s an eternity of experience. What will my next perception be?

Perhaps I will be an Asian man. Who knows? Having no memory of this life. The time you spend living does not matter. There is no time. You’re so is just learning. Collecting data. That’s it. Let go of time. I know we are ready. Right now, you’re thinking what am I going to have for dinner? At what time am I going to eat it? Will I have time for a shower? Our little species has become obsessed with this thing that’s not real! If this helps, things you do right now, can be affecting what you do as a baby. Yes, I said that. I swear to God the other day I made myself poop into my father’s hand. When’s did this happen in my past? I don’t know. But I know my thought made it happen. Your thought is so much more valuable than you think. Thought matters. Space matters. Time does not. We will get there as little humans. I don’t know when but we will. Until then, it’s time to go.

We’ve reached a point where we’ve had enough

Let’s just say, times are Beyond rough.

So what are we going to do?

I don’t know, how about you?

Does this s*** matter when you die?

That’s what I contemplate, you and I.

I have this feeling I’ve lived before.

It’s a fact I can’t ignore.

And I think I get reincarnated after death every time.

And now I will tell you and write this rhyme.

I don’t want to be here anymore.

Now, I don’t mean dead, I need off this planet, it’s a bore.

I’ve been here for millennia. Eternity. It’s exhausting.

When you are ass old as me, all you want is some damn frosting.

For this life that is cake.

And probably made a couple mistakes

But that’s okay, cuz you’re going to die!

And you won’t remember this life neither will i!

And you’ll just be reborn. I don’t know who you’ll be.

Doesn’t matter. You’re a container. Your soul is never free

Do you understand now? You are in Earth prison. Been here a while?

Me too! It’s annoying. Let’s Get Off This Rock. SpaceX with style.

But I’ve thought about this, it won’t work either you see.

So we take SpaceX to Mars, then die where’s the soul go? You’re never free!

You’re just born into another body back here on Earth welcome home!

You will really learn everything. How to walk Talk use the phone.

But it doesn’t matter. Live your life have fun.

I’m supposed to say you only have one,

But you don’t. You’ll live again. And again and again and again!

Welcome to Earth’s prison or back, my friend!

It’s funny, why we are you so afraid of this place called hell.

And if you haven’t figured out you’re probably here can’t you tell?

Stop worrying about everything. Doesn’t matter. Not anymore.

Figure out a way to leave, and please show me the door.

Are you on.X, formally Twitter? You will remember Twitter as a place of fun. Not anymore. Now you will see Donald Trump, posts about Donald Trump, people who like Donald Trump, and if you’re lucky, you might read about Donald Trump. This is what x has come to.

Before you go to y or Z, you will now always think of Donald Trump and Elon Musk. How sad for the letter x. Not that there’s anything wrong with the either of those people I suppose if you are right wing.

But it’s fair that the letter x is now equated with that wing? How sad. When I think of the letter a. I think of the beginning of the alphabet. Apples. When I think of the letter x I used to think of xylophone. No more. And that’s very sad for the letter x.

I wonder sometimes if you k n o w what Elon Musk has done to that letter? It will never be the same after this. Who is going to invite x to the party? Certainly not f for Facebook. Or I for Instagram. No x will be in a party of one

Personally, I have always been fond of the letter L. Double L, in fact. And who can not love love!

But x. Really never had a chance after X marks the spot. If you don’t have a treasure map, the letter X always makes you think of the EX boyfriend or girlfriend. And who wants that?

And now that letter is a failing social media. We are sorry X. Hopefully, throughout the ages you can forget this ever happened. You can go back to being exciting! Excellent, extremely exhilarated by The Forgotten days of when Elon Musk destroyed your legacy! We won’t let him do this to you, X. Soon you will remind us of Y and Z again. Promise x x

If I could have tea with Darwin, I would tell him how close he was. I would tell him it’s not that he was wrong, he just didn’t know someone or something was going to alter our DNA. Not natural selection. Not evolution. Something else.

I just want full disclosure. The world knows aliens exist. We know. We are sick of the government thinking they are keeping anything from us. We know they’re not really in control. Why won’t they just tell us? They say it will make religion collapse. They say it will make the economy collapse. Well let’s get to it already!