today my best friend got married. It was a beautiful day. But internally I’m just not happy. I don’t know what’s wrong with me I thought about writing a status update on social media, but changed my mind. I think I’m going through a mid-life crisis. I am not happy. But I do not know why? What is wrong with I thought about writing a status update on social media, but changed my mind. I think I’m going through a mid-life crisis. I am not happy. But I do not know why? What is wrong with me?! I thought about writing a status update on social media, but changed my mind. I think I’m going through a mid-life crisis. I am not happy. But I do not know why? What is wrong with me?!

I can’t write how I feel Anywhere But Here. Do you know why? It is because my husband and family usually do not read my blog. They do however, read my Facebook status.to truly have an opinion on anything, I have to put it Here.

At age 39, I feel trapped. since my cardiac arrests last year I am restless. I should be happy. I have a wonderful husband, a beautiful daughter, I have a good life. But I think I am going through a midlife crisis. Nothing is like I thought it would be by age 39. Perhaps everyone goes through this. But it is not a happy state of being. I want my happy back.

Life was so exciting when I was 20. What happened? Where did all of my joy go? For goodness sake I have received everything in life I’ve ever wanted, but I still feel unfulfilled I have been married 10 years, I think I need a Date. I know that sounds crazy, but I mean that feeling you get the first time you go out with someone. Oxytocin that beautiful drug you get when you are pregnant or on a first date. Why can’t we get that over the counter?

So I apologize to you, my fellow Traveler in life. I have nowheres else to complain. And unfortunately for you, you have to listen. Because God knows I don’t want to even listen to my self. I am serious about that oxytocin Thing though. We should Market it. We could take care of this midlife crisis problem together! If I had my hands on some of that I would not be worried.

my entire life, I have said that my thirties will be and my forties will rock. I am so glad to be 39. It is almost over. I am thinking this is a part that everyone goes through, have I done everything in life I wanted to? midlife crisis suck. I want that oxytocin.